I am going to explain my situation in brief. My mind always thinks of unrealistic things, for which even I don't know the reason for. Starting to write a blog is actually helping my mind to be more realistic. Actually in some crazy thinking which I can't understand why I had thought of it (as I didn't start writing blog posts at that time), I thought of taking a drop and studying first year again. May be I thought that getting a huge GPA would be good for me later on. Its too easy to say now that I wasn't realistic then. But also, performing to the best is crucial to anyone, right? So I decided to repeat first year. Due to unnecessary postponing in the summer vacation, I took two months to actually go to college and ask for a repeat. On July 7, I went to college once. The Director was not there and I was asked to come on Monday. However I postponed it to Friday. On Friday, the Director was on another meeting and I had to wait for a long time. Finally after a long wa